For Bible Study, we were given the assignment to make a copy of our life's soundtrack and write about each song. As I listened to the final version, I realized there was a overall theme of feeling helpless, and relying on God. I guess over the past several years I have fallen into a "Job" season of my life, with my world being firmly uprooted several times. I have found safety and security in my family and in my God, for there is really little in my life offering me any degree of support. For the most part, they are in no particular order, with a couple exceptions (like when I had too many sad songs together!)
- Hallelujah- Rufus Wainright- This song simply speaks to my belief that no matter how far you fall, God can catch you (cliche, I know!).
- Across the Universe- Fiona Apple- "Jai guru deva" can be translated several ways, in cluding my choice, "Glory to God Divine." For me writing is cathartic, and these lines symbolize that for me:
"words are flying out like endless rain into a paper cup They slither while they pass They slip away across the universe Pools of sorrow waves of joy are drifting thorough my open mind
Possessing and caressing me"
- Storm- Lifehouse- This song almost always makes me cry.
- LDN- Lily Allen- I needed something happy at this point, and though my soundtrack is fairly somber, I like to think I am mostly optimistic. I also went through a period of my life where I wanted to study abroad in London. However, I didn't want to live in the REAl London with rain, fog, and cold; I wanted to live in the sunny and happy london in the movies!
- Lucky- Jason Mraz/ Colbie Caillet-
I'm lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
If I had to pick only one song to describe where I am in my life now, it would be this one! My experiences have built me into who I am, and I am deeply in love with my best friend who is also my husband of seven and a half years!
- Dandelions- Five Iron Frenzy- The story of unconditional love (and a totally touching mommy song!)
- The Rainbow Connection- Sarah McLaughlin- This is a song that makes me think of my older daughter.
- You're Not Alone- Saosin- I need to hear the title many days, I have had many life changes that have caused me to grow apart from my best girlfriends, which often leaves me feeling lonely.
- One Day- Matisyahu- My favorite part of this song is:
sometimes in my tears I drown
but I never let it get me down
so when negativity surrounds
I know some day it'll all turn around
- Liberal Arts Degree- Golden Vanity (old edition)- Right now I am in a rough place when it comes to how I feel about college. I just graduated with my Bachelor's after taking 6 years off (I have had my Associate's for a while). The schools are on a hiring freeze, so I can't apply for a permanent position, so I am frustrated with not using my degree at this moment!
- Zoe Jane- Stained- This song is for my younger daughter.
- Breathe-Acquire the Fire- I love this song, but strangely I have never been to an Acquire the Fire event (couln't afford both TOP/camp and AtF, so I picked TOP), nor do I know how this album ended up in my computer!
- Lazy Eye- Silversun Pickups- This song is about anticipation and looking forward, I guess. Or I just liked it and stuck it on here for fun.....
- Good Riddance- Green Day- I am at a turning point in my life, and waiting to see where God takes me!
- Alarm Clock- The W's- I love the outlook this song has. I keep saying to myself that I need to play those lottery numbers, but never do!
- Battlescars- Ozma- A song about pressing on and never giving up on my dreams!
